Liverpool fashion blogger allie davies

Liverpool fashion blogger outfit featuring monki oversized stripe top, pink culottes, vans old skool trainers and grey bag

Okay so remember a few posts back when I talked about attempting to find a work/life balance? I've made some progress. Well, I think I have. I'm still under all the same stresses, with dissertation work to do, freelance jobs, my part time job and everything else, but I've reached a point where I've learned to let go. When I say let go, I don't mean forgetting about it and giving up, but I have realised I need to focus on what's important to me. I've found what I enjoy the most and I'm prioritising that. Even though it's only been a few days since I had this epiphany to focus on the good stuff, my mental health has already improved immensely.

Over the past few weeks, I've cried a lot, I've napped a lot, and I've procrastinated to a whole new level. With so much to do and think about, I've been feeling pretty overwhelmed, which resulted in me just putting everything off, which inevitably builds the stress even more. This is kind of weird for me, because I'm a bit of a workaholic, and doing nothing just feels a bit wrong to me. You know when people snapchat their duvet day? Staying in bed all day with films and food? That is my least favourite thing to do. I'd genuinely rather be working. I know I'm weird.

Chloe faye dupe bag

Liverpool fashion blogger tie dye eyes

If you follow me on Twitter, it will come as no surprise to hear I don't really enjoy my masters degree. That could be a whole other blog post, but basically I miss being a creative student and feel like I'm losing my outlet and going down the wrong path and may be stuck in a world of SEO, analytics and conference calls forever. When in fact I could be drawing, gif making and creating campaigns for a living. That's why I've been so unmotivated when it comes to doing uni work, even if I relatively enjoy the subject of my dissertation, I dread doing it because it's for my course. I've been doing literally anything else to procrastinate, and recently, that procrastination turned into a revitalised love for blogging.

At 11pm, after spending a whole day doing buzzfeed quizzes, scrolling through ASOS and taking naps, I'd have a sudden burst of motivation and blog. In the past few weeks, I've planned all of my content up until November so there's plenty going up whilst I'm away, I've shot flat lays and outfits way in advance and I've played around with html and even added a shop page. Think of it as productive procrastination. And in the process, I've realised just how much I love blogging. I've been spending time commenting more on Instagram, reading more blog posts and watching more videos. I feel closer to the blogging community and the spark has been reignited, not that it ever went out. 

silver rings topshop and shop dixi

navy and white stripe oversized top monki

They always say that every cloud has a silver lining. And that's true, in this dark cloud of my dissertation and panicking about my career, I've found my peace with blogging, and have more motivation to do well in it than ever. I'm not saying I want to be the next Zoella here, I don't want to be the next anybody. I just want to be me. Cheese alert. 

My mum's been well aware I haven't been quite right for a few weeks now, so on Friday, she came to visit and we spent the day shooting outfits, mooching in town and eating pizza at Baltic Market. What a belter of a day. (Make sure to check my Youtube channel for my vlog exploring Baltic Market if you fancy). I know it's cliché but I really do find my mood improving when I spend time with my loved ones. That's why Friday was my favourite day in a long time, because for the first time in years, I wasn't worried every second of the day. I was out having a good time and the stressful things going on in my life just didn't seem to bother me as much. Occasionally they'd flash through my head but I chose to focus on the great day I was having, and actually listen to my mum when she told me everything would fall into place. And she's right. She is my mum after all.

I don't know how my life is going to pan out, there's no way of telling. But I know I love blogging, so I'm going to do it a lot. Whether it brings me any income or not, I'm going to do it, and I'm going to get stuck back into gif making and illustrating and see where it leads me, because it's these things that make me happy. Of course I'm still going to finish my dissertation and keep on working (a girl's gotta live) but from now on, they come second to what makes me smile. They'll get done, and they'll get done to a high standard, but I won't be stressing about them at 1am and feeling rubbish about myself. Not anymore. Of course this isn't easy, if it was we'd all be happy as Larry without a care in the world. That's why I'm not in any way saying "Just choose to be happy", because unfortunately mental health doesn't work like that, but for me, something has changed as I've focused on what I enjoy, and I hope you're in a position to do that and it helps you too.

top Monki via ASOS - necklace Hamilton & Young - bag Chloé dupe from Shanghai - culottes New Look -
old skool Vans - stone ring Topshop (old) - moon ring Shop Dixi (old)

How are you coping at the minute? I hope you're all well. If not, always feel free to dm me for a chat. We can get through anything with some support and a smile on our faces.

Good vibes guys ✌🏼